cikawin

the memories are mine.
absolutely mine to keep.
no one can take it away,
or deny my right to be apart of it.

but one thing for sure,
the memories is just a chapter in my life,
a priceless gift, i’ll always treasure.

i’m moving forward,
smiling and crossing my little fingers,
to the next chapter of my life,
to create more and more beautiful memories.

May His blessing be mine.

"selamat hari guru (yang tua)!"

oh, pagi ni cikawin sangat nakal.

msg di atas telah dihantar kpd abah yang agaknya2nya pagi tadi kat skolah lagi.(sape2 yg x tau, mak abah saya cikgu-and i’m so proud of them!) tp skang mak dah retire (since 1 Aprill 2007-she said it was an April fool.hehe) abah pulak, masih mengajar BM n PJK kat SK Bukit Merah(subjek fev:bola sepak. sanggup x ikut kami pi langkawi sbb nak men bola). kami cakap, abah sorang ja yang kena pi skolah lagi,dah tua2 pun.. hee…keluarga cikawin mmg suka bergurau. sbb tu kawan saya-caha- ckp, saya ni sarcastic. siap boleh jadi ‘cikgu sarcastic’ dia pulak. huu..tibe2 ada watak caha nih? hish~ eh, saya ni sarcastic ke? suke mengusik ada la kot. tapi kalo kena usik, silap2 bleh mengalir air mata. siap la sapa yg usik tu kena marah ngn mak..hehe. besanya pak sakat lah..dah ada anak sorg dah pak sakat. lalala….

berbalik kepada hari guru, cikawin amat sangat meminati kerjaya seorg guru. sementelahan dibesarkan oleh tangan 2 guru yg hebat (lagi garang-ampun mak,abah…) rasa nya cikgu2 ni best sangat. terkesan dlm ati nih. skali tu, masa kecik2 dulu, kat kampung masa dok tolong mak, tok n makcik2 buat persiapan raya (tolong??rajinnya!), diorg tanya-‘awin besaq esok nak jadi apa? ‘ terkebil2 aku jawab-‘nak jadi cikgu’. then mak mencelah- ‘mak abah dah jadi cikgu, kena la jadi lebih baik lagi’. finally dengan konfidennya saya jawab- ‘camtu awin nak jadi guru besar lah!‘ hehehe…sangat innocent,kan? suci…

skang ni, bila pikir2 balik, agaknya dialog ni lah yg ‘meninggikan’ cita2 aku. thanks mak!! memang la aku x kan jadi cikgu besar. tapi aku bercita2 besar. at least,even if i’m not the highest sparkling star, i’m still among the stars! amin~

walaupun mak abah cikgu, mak abah jugak ada ladang kelapa sawit kecik kat kampung. part time.dari membersihkan kebun, menanam kelapa sawit tuh, sampai la skang menuai hasilnya. mak abah buat. kami anak2 pun tolong gak. tp, biasa la, culas yg lebih. dah besar2, jadi anak dara(geli je sebut), mak abah x suruh saya n kakak pi kebun lagi dah. agaknya x nak tangan kami kasar kot. kurang duit hantaran nanti (memain jek.hehe) tapi ingat masa kecik2 tolong mak abah kat kebun, peluh x ingat. rasa bucuk sgt badan ni. ye la..kerahan tenaga. walaupun sekadar keja angkat pelepah n susun, atau letak baja,dalam panas mentari, bagi pempuan cummil macam cikawin ni, masih dlm kategori berat. tobatt, nak blaja rajin2. x mau keja susah camni bila dah besar nanti..huhuhu..(terima kasih atas pengajaran tu, mak abah) agaknya, anak2 yg ramai ni memerlukan biaya yg lebih drp gaji 2org cikgu. mana taknya, time skolah semua skolah. time masuk U,semua masuk U. x ka parah..tapi tak penah kurang rasa bangga aku kat mak abah dlm bab2 membesarkan kami, anak2. huhu, memangla kami semua penah kena marah, pukui. tp sume tu la yg menjadikan kami ni Kami yg sekarang.

penah skali, adik kena marah ngan guru disiplin depan ramai student. dia ketua pengawas, tapi pakai baju biasa hari tu. sebab baju dia kotor,terkena dakwat pen tumpah rasanya. bleh cikgu tu marah cmni "kamu ketua pengawas, takkanlah baju sehelai saja, anak saya yang tadika pun ada baju 5 helai" (cehh!!) perkara ni jadi satu incident kat skolah. tak nak la citer panjang2. tapi, cikgu tu silap banyak la.mak saya kan skolah tu gak, n minggu kejadian tu dia bertugas. so, speech dia minggu tu ada kata2 ni, "macam manalah saya nak beli baju pengawas lima helai untuk anak saya, abang dan kakak dia lima orang di IPT"..terkedu cikgu yg marah adik tu..ntah kenapa, kisah ni terkesan dalam ati saya..huhuh…

berbalik kepada topik perbincangan kita, selamat hari guru kepada semua guru2. terutamanya yg penah mendidik saya. esp, UmMi (ustzh salwa), pn hasnah dan semua skali dari zaman tadika,tmgs, s.a.r assam kumbang, smapl, kmpp, ums n usm. juga ‘guru’ lain, yg penah mengajar saya apa sahaja, walau pun 1 ayat.terima kasih. moga Allah memberkati.

but still, the most very best teacher award will be given to….Mak aBah!! huhuuh…YaAllah, ampuni dan kasihani mereka sebagaimana mereka mengasihani Kami kecik2 dulu…

*dan aku hanyalah cikgu sarcastic utk caha..hehehe

p/s: anak murid tusen aku dapat markah tertinggi lagi dalam kelas.yay! terasa bahagia dalam hati ni..seronoknya keja cikgu. kepuasan yang tak tergambar!

Apalah guna?

Apalah guna ilmu di dada,

Andai kelak ku bawa ke lahad.

Apalah guna harta pusaka,

Andai yang tinggal berebut berduka.

Apalah guna budi ditabur,

Andai hati tak bisa dihibur.

Apalah guna senyum yang manis,

Andai yang disisi sedih menangis.

Apalah guna wajah nan indah,

Andai muram mengundang duka.

Apalah guna mata bersinar,

Andai kasih dihati sirna.

Apalah guna tangan berbudi,

Andai dibelakang menabur duri.

Apalah guna berbadan sihat,

Andai penat menanam khianat, membuat maksiat.

Apalah guna lidah yang petah,

Andai yang mendengar hatinya patah.

Apalah guna cinta dibaja, dipuja,

Andai perit dihati meraja.

Apalah guna menganyam rindu,

Andah di hati berlagu sendu.

Apalah guna seorang kawan,

Andai kelak menjadi lawan.

Apalah guna seorang kekasih,

Andai kerananya aku menangis, merintih.

Apalah guna aku mengharap,

Andai hati tak putus meratap.

Apalah guna aku menjadi hamba,

Andai redhaMu tak mampu kudamba.

I’ve Learned - by Omer Washington

I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back. I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it. I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your live, but who you have in your life that counts. I’ve learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes, after that, you’d better know something.

I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do. I’ve learned that it’s not what happens to people, it’s what they do about it. I’ve learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides. I’ve learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you’ll see them. I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you think you can’t.

I’ve learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. I’ve learned that there are people, who love you dearly, but just don’t know how to show it. I’ve learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel. I’ve learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance same goes for true love. I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgive by others, sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn’t stop for your grief. I’ve learned that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other and just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.

I’ve learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions. I’ve learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different. I’ve learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get further in life. I’ve learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I’ve learned that writing, As well as talking, Can ease emotional pains. I’ve learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon. I’ve learned that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings and standing up for what you believe. I’ve learned to love and be loved. I’ve learned.

copy-paste from imah’s blog. a fren from ums..

i’ve learned the hard way~!

and i’ll keep learning..

i cried hard over something i thought it was the best for me.
asking deep inside, why God said ‘no’ to my request..
and i cried again..harder and more painfull.
breaking my heart, scattering my courage.
i became weak and fragile,
unable to seek for the ‘best’ again..

then i forgot,
when He says ‘no’, He’s preparing something better for me..
(read doaku, doamu..cinta)
and God’s love surpasses them all.

there’s no pain is let in vain,
no tear unheard,
no sacrifice is made useless..

when i thought it was the best,
there is something much better.
life is a miracle!

and now here i am..
waiting and smiling,
for the best to happen..

after all, my creator knows me best,
cause He created me.

and you!

Noor Mazuin means:

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. .. oh??

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal(eh? look down..) and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You’re always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can’t handle you. You’re very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you’re likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.(opss!)

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. (really?? thank God) You don’t have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you’ll knock down anyone who gets in your way! (watch out~!)

You are usually the best at everything … you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. really?

You are incredibly wise and perceptive. (hahaha..??) You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it’s hard to get you to budge.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you’re so lucky, you don’t really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You’re sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.–> hope so~!

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It’s easy to get you excited… which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don’t stick with any one thing for very long.(just now~ loyal…? hehe..) You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. (emm…betui kot..blaja x abis2 g ni~! huhu..)

*got it from mcnie’s blog. a gud fren from tmgs…
treacher methodist girls’ skool, tepen.
i was soO cute at that time..and comot too! <blink2>

"Sesungguhnya jika Allah mencintai seorg hamba maka Dia tenggelamkan hamba itu dalam cubaan. Barangsiapa yang tidak pernah mengalami musibah maka ia jauh daripada kasih sayangNya…"

Bila Allah cepat makbulkan Doamu, Maka DIA Menyayangimu, Bila DIA Lambat Makbulkan doamu, Maka DIA Ingin Mengujimu, Bila DIA Tidak Makbulkan Doamu, Maka Dia Merancang Sesuatu Yang lEbih Baik Untukmu. Oleh itu, Sentiasalah Bersangka Baik Pada ALLAH Dalam Apa Jua Keadaan Pun…Kerana Kasih sayang ALLAH Itu Mendahului KemurkaanNya.

Kiranya Tiada Cinta Insani Untukku, Cukuplah Cinta Allah Menjadi Penyuluh Hidupku, Kelak Akan Ada CINTA Untukku..Dari Insan Yang Menyintai Allah..Sebagaimana Cintaku TerhadapNya.

p/s: copy-paste drp comment tim kepada "seseorang"….

opss…jangan marah, jangan cubit, jangan jeling awin, tim~!

hehehe…maka, aku terpana pada redup sinar matamu, tim..

uhuk3…

‘biarlah, andai nasibku malang di dunia, aku tak mahu nasib ku malang di sana, di hadapanMu, Tuhan…aku redha. aku tahu. cinta di dunia hanya setitis nikmat cinta syurgawi..dan cintaMu cinta teragung..aku ciptaan yang merindu Penciptaku…"

Ku tadah tangan,

Ku bukakan hati…

Mencari redhaMu, Ilahi….

Terbakar mentari,

Termamah usia,

Ku gagahi jua..

-bukit larut, taiping-

ada sekeping gambar,yg saya sgt suke..

tajuknya-

"ye adik2, waktu maghrib sudah tiba~!!"

hehehe…sila lihat gambar di bawah…

pict: cikawin at batu feringgi, penang.

agaknya, tajuk blog ni kena tukar kut…

"cuti2 malaysia edisi cikawin"

hehe..

Malaysia, bumi bertuahku…

ingin ku jelajahi bumi mu..

ku telusuri sejarah mu..

ku tatapi keindahan mu..

ku kagumi kepelbagaian mu..

kerana engkau anugerah Ilahi buatku..

keluargaku..dan bangsaku..

*gambar2 berjalan2 ini diambil, ketika cikawin masih demam…

hehehe…syukur ada antibiotik,ubat dan doa…uhuk2…

You are strong… when you take your grief and teach it to smile.

You are brave… when you overcome your fear and help others to do the same.

You are happy… when you see a flower and are thankful for the blessing.

You are loving… when your own pain does not blind you to the pain of others.

You are wise… when you know the limits of your wisdom.

You are true… when you admit there are times you fool yourself.

You are alive… when tomorrow’s hope means more to you than yesterday’s mistake.

You are growing… when you know what you are but not what you will become.

You are free… when you are in control of yourself and do not wish to control others.

You are honorable… when you find your honor is to honor others.

You are generous… when you can take as sweetly as you can give.

You are humble… when you do not know how humble you are.

You are thoughtful… when you see me just as I am and treat me just as you are.

You are merciful… when you forgive in others the faults you condemn in yourself.

You are beautiful… when you don’t need a mirror to tell you.

You are rich… when you never need more than what you have.

You are you… when you are at peace with who you are not.

this is just a repost. not my original writing..

but as popeye say it "i am who i am" so,

cikawin is who cikawin is….

hehehe…..

you are sweet…when you smile your bleeding heart away..

bila sedih, ada penghibur..

bila terleka, ada teguran..

bila terlupa, ada peringatan..

bila tertawa, ada manisnya…

bila tersenyum, ada indahnya…

bila sunyi, ada teman2…

bila sakit, ada penawarnya..

bila terasa jauh…

Ya Allah, terasa dekat rahmatMu…